Ramblings

Soooo, the interesting things of late…

I’ve recently discovered that I’m very much the fan of humorous and fashion blogs alike. I read them, skim them, and I come away with a smile on my face, so thank you to recent followers who have such blogs. I need them and so do many others. Keep at it!

Next, update on the writing class…pretty much, the teacher has challenged me so much, that I’m secretly trying to write a whole other story in my head because I’m beginning to dislike the story that I’m almost finished with, no joke!

However, she warns of such a phase and to push through it. Great, (I think) Of course, finish what you start. And I will….(I think)

That’s the update for now.

~Peace friends.

 

AWOL

A-absent

W-worn out from Thanksgiving

O-overwhelmed

L-lazy

I hope that I’m not alone in neglecting my writing. Instead of wasting time writing about my excuses, I created a new acronym from an old one. So, you get the point.

I’m plenty thankful, grateful, and blessed. I realize others aren’t and it grieves me, but I continue to move ahead forward, smiling, hugging, giving, growing, and trying to ignore my desires to just waste away hours covered in warm blankets, pointless exploration of various social media sites and filling my body further with empty calories. Some days I succeed. The other days, I take a breath, whisper a thanks and again, move forward.

~Peace friends.

 

Psst…

I didn’t write today, and it’s okay…the world won’t end, no one is taking grades today. Relax, pull down your shoulders and breathe…

Yes, I’m talking to myself and anyone else who has high standards for themselves like I do.

No, I didn’t write, but I did do a “brain-cleanse” of sorts. I thought a whole lot about the world at large, my kids, and other random stuff. Sometimes that’s what I need especially after an especially heavy brain-load of information.

I had writing class last night and so today, I decided to put my energy into cleaning the bathroom tiles. How does that dark stuff accumulate in between the tiles? It’s so annoying! Anyway, manual labor like that helps me process thoughts, the news of the world and the details of my small life.

I’m coming close to finishing another draft. That’s what I’ve decided to call it. A draft and it’s liberating to call it what it is.  It’s not a complete book. Simon and Schuster isn’t knocking at my door just yet. But, it’s a goal completed, and that is an (or will be) accomplishment.

Until then,

~peace amigos.

The whole day

Seriously, it took the whole day and two glasses of Pinot Grisio to get me in front of the screen to write. Oh, and a square inch of Theo’s dark chocolate. I could’ve eaten the whole bar, but I need to pace myself on the stuff, a slow steady supply is perfect for the soul.

Anyway, here I am and I facing some heavy reflections from my vaca. Here in lovely Seattle, where the air and water are fresh and the connections few, I have time to think, to sit, to ponder. I think that what is important fades to the background here, but it doesn’t disappear. It’s a constant on my heart and mind, the conversations, the interactions I had with the people I love. They don’t go away.  I know and have learned what’s important in life. I’m one blessed individual to have been given a chance, again, not one chance, but multiple to figure it out.

Do I have it all figured out? H-e–l-l no! (I’ve wanted to say that!) I’m not saying that. I’m blessed, but I have obeyed the “voice”of God these days because I know I didn’t in my past. I was the queen of doing what I pleased. I was the quintessential brat. Spoiled in the “soul”way. I thought life revolved around my desires. I had to be shown I wasn’t all that. I had to be torn down to finally “see”. My life had to come crashing down around me in order for me to smell coffee brewing.

Do I know 100% what He wants from me in this life? No, I don’t. Do I have the answers to the problems of this world? Not even close. My gift isn’t intellect, nor especially insight. That isn’t what He’s given me. What He’s given me is mercy. I deserve punishment for ALL the wrong I have done and continue to do, but no, He continues to give me mercy and I’m just so grateful, so, so grateful.

But here’s the thing. I’m not special. I’m not favored. I believe His love is for everyone. Everyone is given the same as God gives me. His gifts are for all who choose to believe and who choose love.

What are you going to choose today? What voice are you obeying today? What has happened in your life to get your attention? What has happened that has made food unappealing and life scary? Are you wondering how you’ll live another day? Yeah, I’ve been there as well. I want you to know you’re not alone. I remember it well and won’t allow myself to forget it.

My “states” of life

I was born and raised in Fort Worth, Texas, and I moved only once at the age of 5 to a town 10 minutes away. Most of the first half of my life, I lived in one house. That was a stable time, in a small world.

I didn’t even dream of the rest of the world that was out there and that I would later have so many addresses in it. From the Pacific coast to the Atlantic and back again,  I ask myself, “Has the journey come to an end in Seattle, Washington?” “Are we home yet?”

My adult life has been filled with new experiences, cultures, climates and terrain and though, slow, I’ve adapted to most, and some of the places I’ve even loved, but I’m ready to settle down. Or am I?

I’ve lived in these places:

Texas, California, New York, New Jersey, Colorado and Washington

Will there be more?