Getting out

I started the day in pain, physical pain. It was taken care of with a couple of Advil, but it slowed me down for the morning. Later, despite the lag in energy, I got out for a brief walk to the nearby store.

In just that 20 minute walk to and from the store, I saw 5 things to lift my mood:

1) Despite the drought, I still saw many flowers that took my breathe away. A few I hadn’t seen before like orange daisies and a lighter colored sun flower.

2) I admired a child’s “take-one, leave-one” display that I’ve seen before, but keep forgetting to  bring something with me to exchange, (next time).

3) I saw a man walking his pair of goats. I wanted to take a picture, but I was too shy. As the goats walked, they nibbled and weeded yards. Cool!

4) On my way home, since the sky is cloudless today, I saw in the distance, the mountain range, beautiful.

5) Also, in the cloudless blue sky, I saw a series of airplanes that will probably be part of the Seafair festival out for a practice run. I know it’s a big deal here in Seattle this weekend.

Unstuck

I think just saying that I was stuck unstuck me, or I just woke up with a fresh attitude. It doesn’t matter because I’ve created a somewhat schedule for myself and I’m going to attempt to do my job. That is, be a writer.

Yes, it’s time to pull out the novel and at least work on editing the first chapter. I won’t do it all day long, just a bit. Let’s see how that goes. My orchid bloomed and I’m going to take it as a sign of new birth, new beginnings, the sign of new things to come. Wanna see it? Go here. This is the plants second set of  “children” and I did love those other blooms, but this one’s a beaut!

~Peace friends.

Stuck

So, today, I realized that I’m stuck, but that it’s for a good reason. There’s a part of me that’s tired, exhausted. I’m not wanting any pity or sympathy; facts are facts. Tired people don’t produce as well as they could if they’re rested.  Resting, exercising, making good food choices even “veg-ging” are all things that will help along with something else. Waiting.

Waiting isn’t the popular thing to do for people who enjoy producing. I just need to realize that being tired is a legit result of living through a lengthy emotionally driven time period.

It’s okay to take a break, a mental break, physical break, emotional break. It doesn’t have to mean the end of anything, but just a break in the action of life.

So, there it is. I’ll return when I can.

The whole day

Seriously, it took the whole day and two glasses of Pinot Grisio to get me in front of the screen to write. Oh, and a square inch of Theo’s dark chocolate. I could’ve eaten the whole bar, but I need to pace myself on the stuff, a slow steady supply is perfect for the soul.

Anyway, here I am and I facing some heavy reflections from my vaca. Here in lovely Seattle, where the air and water are fresh and the connections few, I have time to think, to sit, to ponder. I think that what is important fades to the background here, but it doesn’t disappear. It’s a constant on my heart and mind, the conversations, the interactions I had with the people I love. They don’t go away.  I know and have learned what’s important in life. I’m one blessed individual to have been given a chance, again, not one chance, but multiple to figure it out.

Do I have it all figured out? H-e–l-l no! (I’ve wanted to say that!) I’m not saying that. I’m blessed, but I have obeyed the “voice”of God these days because I know I didn’t in my past. I was the queen of doing what I pleased. I was the quintessential brat. Spoiled in the “soul”way. I thought life revolved around my desires. I had to be shown I wasn’t all that. I had to be torn down to finally “see”. My life had to come crashing down around me in order for me to smell coffee brewing.

Do I know 100% what He wants from me in this life? No, I don’t. Do I have the answers to the problems of this world? Not even close. My gift isn’t intellect, nor especially insight. That isn’t what He’s given me. What He’s given me is mercy. I deserve punishment for ALL the wrong I have done and continue to do, but no, He continues to give me mercy and I’m just so grateful, so, so grateful.

But here’s the thing. I’m not special. I’m not favored. I believe His love is for everyone. Everyone is given the same as God gives me. His gifts are for all who choose to believe and who choose love.

What are you going to choose today? What voice are you obeying today? What has happened in your life to get your attention? What has happened that has made food unappealing and life scary? Are you wondering how you’ll live another day? Yeah, I’ve been there as well. I want you to know you’re not alone. I remember it well and won’t allow myself to forget it.

I will write

I’m still here. After thinking about the goals for my site and I’ve decided to “try on” a different theme. The goal here is writing and my previous theme, though appealing, kept me from my goal as I was focusing too much on thinking of what photo to highlight or which would match the writing.  So, for those of you that enjoy my photography, please visit my photo blog. The purpose of that site is photos. For this site, I will write.

I spent a few weeks in my hometown of Fort Worth, Texas visiting, thinking, reflecting and plotting as usual. Is there an artist that doesn’t plot, scheme, dream or wonder? Whether it was the sweltering heat, or the food choices or lack of chocolate, I came away from my vacation more sure than fearful about the path of my future career. I will write. Though the use of a comma evades me, I will write.

I even enjoyed the fantasy of becoming a novelist. But, it occurred to me that there is one thing that I don’t have in common with story writers. It seems to me that most novelists enjoy telling stories, while I fancy the weaving of a story. Makes me wonder if instead I just need to try to play Minecraft?

Eh, no, there’s something about the written word that is joyful, playful, and open to possibilities that appeals to me, is me.

~I will write.

Friday’s thoughts

Hi everyone,

TGIF!

Daily writing has been great for practicing writing, but I’ve also learned some things:

1.  I’m not a very good news reporter. Despite technology and media, I seem to be a step behind the big news. I’ve not yet watched the Jon Stewart video that other people posted on FB. But, that’s okay, I don’t want to report the news.

2. I find myself struggling for purpose for writing and just writing for writing sake is fine and good practice, but I can see that pretty soon, I’ll just want a blog with a specific goal in mind or I’ll just want to write a novel.

I admit, transitioning from a day job to a writing from home job has been tough. I feel as if I’m floating in the sea, looking for land, fearing the sharks, but enjoying the relaxation as well. In the same scenario, a question becomes clear:

Am I actually going anywhere? Without a sail or someone to rescue me, will I ever reach land?

Career Changer

In contrast to yesterday, it took me a while to get going today, but I’m hoping that after reading this article that I’ve gained some perspective. And as a side note, this is not the first interesting article I’ve read from Forbes. I’ll have to put them on my reading list.

The take aways from that article are:

1. goals and plans

2. know yourself deeper than you have before.

“Until you let go of what you’re doing and thinking that keeps you stuck and small, you can’t build a happy, successful career. Your limitations will follow you in every new direction until you address them.” 

Ugh! That’s true, limitations follow! After reading that I cringed at what’s on my heels. Get away from me disorganization, distraction, laziness! And then, it also said:

“You also need a 3-month, 6-month and 12-month plan, with specific, measurable, achievable, realistic, and timely goals, and someone in your court to hold you accountable. Again, don’t try this on your own. You’ll fail.”

And I thought, that’s another thing, the hard thing.(for me) You don’t try this on your own. That’s the hard one. I’m good with keeping to myself. In some ways, that’s what teacher’s do, but I’m not a teacher anymore, I’m a writer and networking is a necessary part of “careering”.

Yep. True, until next time.

~peace friends.

Good Morning

I woke up at 5:45 a.m., but no worries, here in the Pacific Northwest the sun cracks the dawn early enough to go ahead and start your day. The crows will help in your decision of whether or not to peel back the covers and start your day. No need for alarms here at least in my neighborhood.

The good news: There’s now plenty of time to get things done since I’m up soooo early. I hope to catch up on my Content Writing Course. These videos are brief and informative and I recommend the site to anyone wanting to learn about all kinds of topics. It’s called Open2 study and the best part, it’s free!

The bad news: I’m a bit groggy since I had a bad night. It wasn’t such a good idea to end Sunday night with a large portion of Molly Moons goodness. When they offered two size choices, I went for the large, bad idea! That meant 3 scoops of ice cream! And I ate most of it.

But I do recommend this treat, just don’t do what I did and decide to eat it at 10:30 p.m. unless of course you’re young and can handle that sort of thing.

~Peace friends.